Just a tiny little update!

Woah.. Just passed my 22nd Birthday few days ago! Frankly Speaking, i dont really like to celebrate my own birthday, i prefer to accompany others to celebrate their birthday. Well, still in NS and now having recon course, gonna stuck there for about 5weeks more. Hopefully, with pride, i will wear my jungle hat at the end of the course..  Then imma take medical appointment to check my back and my chest. 

Till now, im still single! im loving no one and missing for no one right now!  Is it a good or bad thing? Cant really tell, looking from two different perspective, you get the answer. I only rmb the sweetest moment is i held a gal hand, and thats all. 

i see that janice and sonia is getting better and better. they even have their own concert all over the world. didnt have the chance to catch them live on stage. heard that their album is gonna release mid- may. Keeping track of the time now, the coolest movie at the moment is the avengers! Street dance 2 and step up 4 keep my passion on going, and if end of the world is really coming, we are about half way there now.. 

oh yeah, i also got one saving plan for myself, for the next 25years i am attached to the plan! so i can only get my money when im like 47 years old! >.< is good from a point of view, cutting down my expenses all these, as well as cutting down on foods, aka fats! XD

So, whats the current trend or coolest stuff? Vampire diaries and walking dead for me! Bleach ended, for the moment. Sure thing that it will make a come back, manga still ongoing. Naruto fighting war now and kamen Rider Fourze is the latest. Oh, and kamen Riders X Super Sentai Movie, too bad is not in singapore, but imma get the dvd if its in stores! Samsung galaxy s3 just launched i think. Iron man suit Mark 7, well, that doesnt look any different for me. Janice and Sonia the coolest twins ever and Sonia engaged! LOLOL.. >.< 

Trying to get into Uni, SIT, hopefully to get a degree in science. And for my passion, i need money time and energy, for dance and wushu.. soon after course, hopefully i have the time to play, train and learn Go with a dan 2 recce mate and continue with violin, in camp with guidance from those pros! 

Everyday, i try to make my life more meaningful and enjoy all things that i have, must, need to do even if i dont like it.. Get a better life for myself, no point grumble and siam the things.. Just make it part of your life, see a bigger picture of yourself! 

I feel so lazy to update my blog, haven been updating since last year december.... so i shall do a quick one... summarize everything till recent activities... ok.. I POPed on 7 January 2012, then had my one week break, which cut short my leave days for this year... i was posted into recce.. dont know i should be happy or sad to get into this vocation... well... the first two months in the rsta coy wasnt that bad.. though the training were tough... but is still durable.. completed my advance infantry training... and right now im having my bike course... so thats about it for army... nothing much... just that.. the pay is too little for me... tough time do come.. i believe time will be more tough after my bike course, which will proceed on to recce training... right now.. i get to stay in for one month.. cherishing it.. and i thought i have the time for dance.. i was wrong... totally no time not energy no money for it.. so i guess i will have to groove on my on... i have to look on a bigger picture of my life.. where are the fun.. what are my passions... i will continue to live and do what i can and what i enjoy... in a nutshell... live life to the fullest.. oh yea.. i happened to bought a bible on valentine day.. hahhaa.. cool right... put in my bad.. feel like a treasure to me.. but i haven read it yet... im too lazy to read books.. haha.. ok... got to go.. the next time i will update.. is the time when i feel like to and not lazy... ^^

so... i will update a bit..

hmm... Haven been seeing my all my brolys for a long time... miss them all..

And, Bubbly.. Not that my feelings for her have faded... just that.. if i keep thinking.. is just a waste of my energy.. for now... i just hope that those sucky feelings dont ever come back... coz i want to move on! Well, if i ever see her on street... of coz i will have that look into her eyes feelings... ah... you get what i mean then you get what i mean... lazy to explain...

For now, i just carry on with my life.. and do more for my family.. BGR all these... imma put aside first... have then have... if no... i also dont really care... shun qi zhi ruan.. this type of thing cannot force de... Actually, i have to agree that.. i dont have the power to provide her what she needs.. but i can only tell her that.. i can go thru thick and thin with her.. but whats the point of saying this.. Not that i have given up on her... just that... i dont want to waste my energy over this ku ku ti ti de love.. no point... Life still goes on!

Bubbly! I will stand by your side if you ever need me! I will never abandon you, if you are out of track, i will do my best to bring you back!

As for Army, basically.. just like that lorh.. Live Range Over! Thanks god. Amen! Field Camp over! yeah... I tot is going to be tough... but the toughness is below my expectation... hahhaa... not that i am showing off or my fitness is there... just that my mind provide that info... hahaha... 3 more weeks to POP... after that... imma declare that i have breathing difficulty.. and i seriously have it... and also... i cannot take heavy load... i cannot catch my breathe... still ask me to sing along all these crap.... no way... i could hardly catch my breathe.. bo bian.. what to do... my body is like that.. i want to love my body... dont want to make it worst.... so... please... down pes me.. and give me light work... and more free time for myself to train wushu and dance... if can... i can bring my violin over.. and practice too... and my Go chess... i will never be bored, so dont worry...

Wrap it up.. Xmas is here.... Civilian wear is still the best!

I know that we cannot be together..

And i know that even if i wait for you, there will still be no outcome for us..

Only if you learn to accept me and adapt to it...

I will protect you, for the best that i could, even it mean to be the bad guy and you will hate me..

If everybody in this world give up on you, i will still stand by your side..

We are not meant to be together, but my love is meant for you.. until the day someone gains it..

And fear not, you will still have my care and concern.. till the day i die~

Amen~

I love you =)

Silent doesnt mean that i do not care about you... just that i dont want to disturb you...
I feel tired... but... i still love you, Bubbly!
Really hope to see you again before i enlist..
I want to date you again... and again.. and forever...
Now i giving you space, and as well as giving myself space to breathe..

And if you tell me we are impossible, then i will then you that
I believe in Miracles, and miracles will break your 'impossible'..
for i will stand by you... for now and ever..
even though you may not be mine... but if you fall... i will catch..
till the very end of my power..

She is not talking to me...she ignored me for about a week...

If i were to choose, between: to give up and she will talk to me... and to hold on and love her but she will never gonna talk to me...

if you know me well... you already know my answer.. i know is dumb... but.. i just want to do something for the girl i love... even if she hates me or ignore me for rest of her life...

I Miss You, Bubbly!