so... i will update a bit..

hmm... Haven been seeing my all my brolys for a long time... miss them all..

And, Bubbly.. Not that my feelings for her have faded... just that.. if i keep thinking.. is just a waste of my energy.. for now... i just hope that those sucky feelings dont ever come back... coz i want to move on! Well, if i ever see her on street... of coz i will have that look into her eyes feelings... ah... you get what i mean then you get what i mean... lazy to explain...

For now, i just carry on with my life.. and do more for my family.. BGR all these... imma put aside first... have then have... if no... i also dont really care... shun qi zhi ruan.. this type of thing cannot force de... Actually, i have to agree that.. i dont have the power to provide her what she needs.. but i can only tell her that.. i can go thru thick and thin with her.. but whats the point of saying this.. Not that i have given up on her... just that... i dont want to waste my energy over this ku ku ti ti de love.. no point... Life still goes on!

Bubbly! I will stand by your side if you ever need me! I will never abandon you, if you are out of track, i will do my best to bring you back!

As for Army, basically.. just like that lorh.. Live Range Over! Thanks god. Amen! Field Camp over! yeah... I tot is going to be tough... but the toughness is below my expectation... hahhaa... not that i am showing off or my fitness is there... just that my mind provide that info... hahaha... 3 more weeks to POP... after that... imma declare that i have breathing difficulty.. and i seriously have it... and also... i cannot take heavy load... i cannot catch my breathe... still ask me to sing along all these crap.... no way... i could hardly catch my breathe.. bo bian.. what to do... my body is like that.. i want to love my body... dont want to make it worst.... so... please... down pes me.. and give me light work... and more free time for myself to train wushu and dance... if can... i can bring my violin over.. and practice too... and my Go chess... i will never be bored, so dont worry...

Wrap it up.. Xmas is here.... Civilian wear is still the best!

I know that we cannot be together..

And i know that even if i wait for you, there will still be no outcome for us..

Only if you learn to accept me and adapt to it...

I will protect you, for the best that i could, even it mean to be the bad guy and you will hate me..

If everybody in this world give up on you, i will still stand by your side..

We are not meant to be together, but my love is meant for you.. until the day someone gains it..

And fear not, you will still have my care and concern.. till the day i die~

Amen~

I love you =)

Silent doesnt mean that i do not care about you... just that i dont want to disturb you...
I feel tired... but... i still love you, Bubbly!
Really hope to see you again before i enlist..
I want to date you again... and again.. and forever...
Now i giving you space, and as well as giving myself space to breathe..

And if you tell me we are impossible, then i will then you that
I believe in Miracles, and miracles will break your 'impossible'..
for i will stand by you... for now and ever..
even though you may not be mine... but if you fall... i will catch..
till the very end of my power..

She is not talking to me...she ignored me for about a week...

If i were to choose, between: to give up and she will talk to me... and to hold on and love her but she will never gonna talk to me...

if you know me well... you already know my answer.. i know is dumb... but.. i just want to do something for the girl i love... even if she hates me or ignore me for rest of her life...

I Miss You, Bubbly!

Dont leave me!
Will you stay if i ask you to..?
I really need you...
I really love you....
Dont leave me, please!

If he really loves you and you really love him, go ahead.. i give you my blessings.
She is the first girl that i love, i admit that i like her because she is cute and bubbly~
But now, i fallen too deep for her, i love her..
she is the first person and the first girl i can tell her everything.. which means she is the key for me to break free... and i really want to break free..
i hope that he truly loves her, not because of her appearance...
you know, i can tell you that.. i love you.. not because of your appearance.. because i can really speak my heart to you.... because i really need you..
i know very well, my feelings for you..
and if you really like him, then i hope you have made the right choice..
you know i might not be able to provide you enough... but i know i will try very hard..
but since if you have made your choice.. then... i sincerely bless you two...
i dont know how long will i take to fade my feelings for you.. coz i have fallen too deep..
if you are happy.. then im happy for you...
you mean really a lot to me...
haha... this is the first time i use the word 'love' to describe my feelings to a girl..
and i dont think i have the chance to say the 3 words (ilu) to you, face to face...
i guess we both are really not fated to be together..
Coral, i really want to hug you tight...
I love you! I will still be there for you if you ever need me...

Time will prove everything!

I DONT CARE! I DONT CARE! IM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE ASK ME TO LET GO! I DONT CARE THAT IF SHE THINKS IM SELFISH, PERSISTENCE OR DONT UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF IMPOSSIBLE! I JUST NEED TO LOVE HER FOR ALL I CAN! EVERYDAY IS VERY PRECIOUS TO ME! WHY MAKE THE LOVE SO COMPLICATED? I KNOW THAT I NEED TO CONSIDER A LOT OF THING, BUT I JUST WANT TO MAKE IT SIMPLY, LOVE JIU LOVE! YOU KNOW I FEEL TIRED OF LOVING HER SOMETIMES! BUT I KNOW I WHAT MY HEART WILL DO, WHAT MY BODY WILL REACT!

I WANT TO LOVE HER BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO HAVE YI HAN, WAIT FOR HER TO GET ATTACHED THEN I VERY REGRET.... AT LEAST, LET HER KNOW HOW I THINK.. LET HER KNOW ABOUT MY FEELINGS... WHETHER SHE CHOOSE ME OR NOT IS UP TO HER.. AND SERIOUSLY, FROM THE MOMENT I SAY I LOVE HER, I EXPECT TO GET NOTHING IN RETURN.. COZ THIS IS WHAT I WILL DO FOR HER AND I JUST HAVE TO LISTEN TO MY HEART AND I WONT GET TIRED OR STRESS ABOUT IT!

11 Nov 2011.... is a good day for me to..... hmm.... if i have the chance... i will text her! and i will... say it.. though is text... but i will say it thru my heart!

can i just shout your name out loud??? if i have the chance, i will hug you tight! and why the heck when i look at other girls, i will just come to think of you... did god just put you in my heart and put me on hold for a moment..? im in a lost! God, please tell me what i should do..

I love you!
I miss you!
I need you!
But, I can't tell you!

why my heart still feel so sour when i see her! maybe letting go is one thing... thinking of her is another thing...

Yeah.... after life and death.. another level up for love... feel so shiok now.. hehehe.. ^^

Hahah... I've finally realised that im being too selfish to myself and as well as her if im still holding on.. im letting go because i respect her decision, not becoz i cant have the patient to play the waiting game.. LOL.. we are destined to meet each other but we are not fated to be together... so i am happy enough that we are just friends.. n_n and i do believe that god will give her someone better.. for me and for her.. =)) thanks jolene.. for waking me up from my dream..=)

Ive come to love, to wait and realised, and finally to let go.. im happy that ive learnt a lot.. hehehe.. ^^

whats the differences between Buddhist and a christian? i really have no idea... the way we worship? perhaps so..? but somehow, from what im taught, i see no different in the god..
i was taught that Jesus is just a conversion of other Buddha... hence, i see no diff, you can ask me to go to the church, i will worship to Jesus as well.. coz to me i see no different in gods...
somehow im that kind of person that believe in both side, i see both as god..
people from both side will think that im not loyal or something...
how bout saying me a free thinker?? eh wait, free thinker are those who doesnt believe the existence of god?? im not too sure too...
i believe in god, both Jesus and Buddha...
so, why and how do i give a definitely stand?
i know there are a lot of differences in both christian and Buddhist..
but is pointless for me to convert here and there, coz i see no diff in god in both religion.. =)

Holding on and Moving on at the same time, and expect nothing in return! <3

waking up in the middle of my sleep... or dream... whatever....
the feelings rushing back to me...
a voice in my head ask me not to give up so easily....
no, a voice in my head ask me not to give up.....
guess i just cant help it.... im awake now... freaking awake....
hah, i know if i continue this will lead me to nowhere..
but for the time being i couldnt help it.. i cant stop...
i know if i continue and might take years and eventually i will get nothing back..
but i guess this is what im gonna do...
maybe god is testing with my patience..
something the make me believe that we can overcome the religion differences..
i just need to believe that we can be together someday...
no, i believe that we can be together!
i think i get the feeling of what is love...
just give her my heart, no matter how heartache i am... i will still be there for her.....
i will fu chu.... and will wont hope for any hui bao....
right... my mind is set....
lets see how long my feelings for her will drain out completely....
i will be waiting for her at the end..
i love you, coral!

i hope everything will be fine... im thinking of far ahead of our future... thats what im worry about... i fear that i might not be able to provide her enough.... as in $$$...

religion part to me should not be a problem... but for her... im not sure... coz i will not hinder her connection with god.. but the way.... though i Buddhist.. i also believe in christian god... this where im standing.. im not just one sided.. im two sided.. (got such word =X)

im not expecting her to visit the temple with me when i need too... in addition, i will pei her to church if she needs me.. hmm.. actually i can just go church like that right..? i dont mind if the church ppl dont mind... ^^

she afraid that we might end up breaking coz we have no more feelings for each other... hmm... thinking of which... from her point of view... she is scare that i might break with her... from my point of view.... i scare that she will run away from me... =X
so now she has to trust me and i have to trust her.....
i wont break with her just becoz i have no feelings for her already...

what im afraid is.... some illness will separate us... as in... i love her, but i will leave her for her own good... coz if i stay around i will be a burden to her... touch wood mann....

yeah... i will use the word.. i love her.. i will pour out all my feelings for her...

my feelings for her wont fade and i must trust her as well...

all these issues are not an issue to me...
(to her.. im not too sure)

And even if we overcome her problems.... i still have my problems..
i wont get into a relationship with her though we have feelings for each other, without me telling her my problems that i want to tell... it will be unfair for her...

and only she knows and dont mind it... i will have her in my heart... and tell her that im ready to love you!

Hope she can accepts my problems.. after which... i will love her whole heartily!

haha.. i almost forget i have a blog to express my thoughts... hmm... right.. im gonna sort out the feelings once and for all.. is time for me to let it all out.. Let it all out! =)

Something that i never try and never will i know...
If it gonna turn out to something that disappoint me.. so be it.. coz i have try and i get the answer...

And this shall be my first and last time trying... and hope will turn out to be good... =)

She will be the first girl that i... can i say love..? hmm... im not on the fence...
but just that i will also need her to drop me a hint...

If she drops me a good one... then i will go all out for her and love her!

And im prepared to tell her everything... but this is the part im scare of..
Whether she will hold on to my hand or slowly let go of it, i really dont know..

Just that, i find that is time for me to really go and gan gan love.. If not i will only get more and more depress... which i dont want!

I dont want to regret becoz of these that im not be able to fall in love freely..

I want to know what is love!

I want to love her! <3

Maybe i think too much or what... she ask me to pei her eat dinner... then pei me go popping class.. which in the end i pei her went for intermediate hiphop... giving me the feeling that she... hmm... yeah.. but.. i really dont know.. i scare she is the type of wanna make me fall for her then only tell me that she treat me as a friend only... thats why im holding it back... unless she say or do anything which makes me feel we are more than just friends.. i promise myself not to fall for her..

Where is the Double Hui...? =P

ok, dont know why got the feel to type this... just that something triggers me...
dont know why for the past 3 years you keep shooting me, as if i did something wrong to you... if so.. you can let me know.. but i doubt so..

so are you going to tell me thats your character? so you just wanna shoot me for nothing...? for your info, i dint even want to retaliate back when you shoot me.. not that becoz im scare or what, just that i dint even want bother you and stir up trouble...

if you think that i cannot 'rebound' back your shooting you are darn wrong, coz shooting is pointless, eg, me: wah, this pizza is not nice ( just a casual remark), you: then you dont eat la ( say it until f**king sarcastic)...

if i wanna retaliate--> me: i want to eat dont want to eat is not your problem!
you: then hai chao jiang duo ( then still talk so much)

scenario 1:
me: no one ask you to listen leh,
you: then you dont say la,
me: like i say, no one ask you to listen

and most likely he will just shoot back another : then dont say lah, hai chao jiang duo, <-- this means that he totally dont understand the argument.. im just quarrelling with someone who doesnt uses his brain! then in the end i will still diam diam, then he will think that he won the argument... LOLOL

scenario 2:
Me: wah, you freaking sarcastic leh!
You: Sui jiao ni chao jiang duo!

haha... like that meaning that you yourself agree that you are being sarcastic! most likely you will diam diam or keep on repeating your only sentence... =.=

i dint mention anyone name... so if anyone can guess who is it even without me mentioning.... somehow you know the person, maybe his character all this.. you can tell directly who is this....

and if one of you read already very fed up, most likely you are a very good friend of that person, and most likely what you think that what he did is right?? the way he shoot me for 3 years and i dint say anything all this...

and if someone read le.... thinking im talking about you... then should be you liao.. coz if you wen xin wu kui, you wont have to bother who im saying now... right?

haha, dont know why... when i look at your pics, they carry me to the past... when i first saw your eyes....
im attracted to you....
miss those time when im in love with you.... miss those days that i spend my times doing paper roses for you... miss those moment when i talk to you..
still remember the epic moment i asked for your cell no... i was so shy back then...
you too... crush on you for two years... crush? nope.. i really like you.... ^^ anw.. thats the past... it will be in my memories.... all the best... Jessica Ching Hui Xian!

well, i have been doing this for so long... i should carry it until... i dont know... 10 or 20 years..?

i would seriously want to make friends with ppl like me...

Fuck this, hiding myself all the times from the day i was born! when can i break free from this..?

馬超Rap歌詞

馬超出操 操埸操馬 餵馬吃馬草
馬媽媽超操心 炒炒碼麵 餵馬超吃 Yea­h
馬超不吃炒碼麵 在操埸出馬操吵
馬媽媽炒炒碼麵 馬媽媽不爽操起炒­碼麵
罵操埸出馬操的馬超去吃馬草
不知道是操埸出馬操的馬超 吵了馬媽媽
她餵馬超吃了炒碼麵 還是操炒­碼麵的馬媽媽
罵操埸出操的馬超他操馬超吵而餵馬超吃了馬草

Feel like crying over dance....

Feel like crying... first dance lesson and i suck to the core.... i dont know what im doing... im the worst over there.... im so disappointed in myself.. even simple move i cant even coordinate... i cant feel the beat... i cant feel the groove.... i cant express it.... im just like a stone down there... im a slow learner perhaps... tsk tsk... therefore... the only thing i can do is to keep practice.. Popping and Locking is sure tough thing... I cant even keep up with Hip Hop... How bout BBoy? Maybe i just need to get my feelings back....

Chicken Pox Dairy

Wo Hao Xin Ku... 3rd day of chicken pox, Sunday and Monday i was having a fever. I think is from the start of monday night, my face appeared 2 red dots.. i thought it was pimples and didnt care much and went to sleep. The next day, which is Tuesday, rashes got worsen when i went to work, i feel hot even in a aircon room. I thought i was just heaty thats why rashes appeared. i drank one barley and 2 herbal tea, only to find that was useless. i rushed home and take a cold shower, hoping it will smoothen the condition.

But on wednesday when i woke up, then conditions was far worse then i expected, i consulted doctor only to know that i was infected by the varicella zoster virus, and then came chicken pox. Darn it! Wrong timing to get sick. And received a 2 weeks MC from Doctor.

Suffering,
other than having red dots all over body and face, it also grew in your ear, nose and on and around your genital area....
The common one is that you cannot scratch, poke or burst the 'bubbles' or else it will leave scars behind.
the poxes will harden and turn brown black, now you cannot peel off or else you will regret, coz the scar will left with you forever.
The speed of recovery varies from person to person, some may have the harden at bout 3 to 4 days later... some will last for about 2 weeks or so. Until then, the person infected are consider contagious and have to stay away from every one.
one more thing.. the infected person will feel cold during the 'incubation' period. that is normal.

Graduation 2011

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Knocking Out Enemies in the Pokemon Card Game

Retreating in the Pokemon Card Game

Special Conditions in the Pokemon Card Game

Turn Actions in the Pokemon Card Game

Starting a Pokemon Card Game

Setting up a Pokemon Card Game Match

Introduction : Vampire Diaries

Ok this is my new blog! Anyway, just started to use funshion, right im slow.. =P A lot of great movies i can watch for free at funshion. Vampire Diaries was introduced to me by my friend, though i heard of it before. Ive finished watching season 1 & 2, awaiting for season 3 to be release.