i hope everything will be fine... im thinking of far ahead of our future... thats what im worry about... i fear that i might not be able to provide her enough.... as in $$$...

religion part to me should not be a problem... but for her... im not sure... coz i will not hinder her connection with god.. but the way.... though i Buddhist.. i also believe in christian god... this where im standing.. im not just one sided.. im two sided.. (got such word =X)

im not expecting her to visit the temple with me when i need too... in addition, i will pei her to church if she needs me.. hmm.. actually i can just go church like that right..? i dont mind if the church ppl dont mind... ^^

she afraid that we might end up breaking coz we have no more feelings for each other... hmm... thinking of which... from her point of view... she is scare that i might break with her... from my point of view.... i scare that she will run away from me... =X
so now she has to trust me and i have to trust her.....
i wont break with her just becoz i have no feelings for her already...

what im afraid is.... some illness will separate us... as in... i love her, but i will leave her for her own good... coz if i stay around i will be a burden to her... touch wood mann....

yeah... i will use the word.. i love her.. i will pour out all my feelings for her...

my feelings for her wont fade and i must trust her as well...

all these issues are not an issue to me...
(to her.. im not too sure)

And even if we overcome her problems.... i still have my problems..
i wont get into a relationship with her though we have feelings for each other, without me telling her my problems that i want to tell... it will be unfair for her...

and only she knows and dont mind it... i will have her in my heart... and tell her that im ready to love you!

Hope she can accepts my problems.. after which... i will love her whole heartily!

haha.. i almost forget i have a blog to express my thoughts... hmm... right.. im gonna sort out the feelings once and for all.. is time for me to let it all out.. Let it all out! =)

Something that i never try and never will i know...
If it gonna turn out to something that disappoint me.. so be it.. coz i have try and i get the answer...

And this shall be my first and last time trying... and hope will turn out to be good... =)

She will be the first girl that i... can i say love..? hmm... im not on the fence...
but just that i will also need her to drop me a hint...

If she drops me a good one... then i will go all out for her and love her!

And im prepared to tell her everything... but this is the part im scare of..
Whether she will hold on to my hand or slowly let go of it, i really dont know..

Just that, i find that is time for me to really go and gan gan love.. If not i will only get more and more depress... which i dont want!

I dont want to regret becoz of these that im not be able to fall in love freely..

I want to know what is love!

I want to love her! <3

Maybe i think too much or what... she ask me to pei her eat dinner... then pei me go popping class.. which in the end i pei her went for intermediate hiphop... giving me the feeling that she... hmm... yeah.. but.. i really dont know.. i scare she is the type of wanna make me fall for her then only tell me that she treat me as a friend only... thats why im holding it back... unless she say or do anything which makes me feel we are more than just friends.. i promise myself not to fall for her..

Where is the Double Hui...? =P